I Know I'm a God :Vent Art:

Okay some of you may questions.
1: "Why is it called god?"
- Futsu is a demon god which was given to him by Lucifer for him being corrupted
2:"Why is this a vent art?"
-That will be explained just give me a moment of your time to explain.

Well let's say at first it wasn't suppose to be a vent at all. At first, it kinda was suppose to be a cute funny picture. Then it turned into so much more that helped me grieve a bit over my niece... I thought I was over it because literally the thought of her didn't bother me, I knew she was gone, and she was going to be in a happy place in the arms of people we lost in life for my family. Well the more I worked on this the more I start to feel this heart wrenching pain in my chest (obviously). The more I looked at it after naming the character after her... The more I started to hurt, not because of the character but the interaction. There was a little tradition I had with all my nieces, they played with my hair as they seen fit, one put toys in my hair, one put dirt and flowers in it, one swung on it like a jungle gym. Yeah there was so many things they were allowed to do. Now, this was just the start. I was listening to a mix on youtube that pulled up the song that made me think of the new title "I know I'm a wolf" by young Heretics. Seeing these two characters interact with that song... Made me wish I had those moments.... Some people for the longest time and still do see me with a wolf like mentality, which made it harder to listen to seeing this picture while I was making it.... I was just so hurt. There are so many words I wish to say to little Nevaeh. May she rest in peace and live on in a world where she will be safe and grow to be an amazing little girl. Now her death was more painful to me than my "brother" Because.... She didn't have a chance to see all the things life had to offer. I will say for my "brother" he as part of the lucky few to be able to say. "I had a loving family, a daughter, a house that I owned, and living with my best friend and his family and watching them grow beside mine".... She didn't even get a chance to pick something as simple as a favorite color, favorite animal, or even say one word. She has never said a word and she made the biggest impact with just her smiles and giggles. She brought my family together a lot and from the sounds of it... My family sounded like a family again after we all split apart and only talked when someone needed something or someone died..... It was sad... I just wish, so much that she was still here. Not just for me, but my brother who lost her, his girlfriend, my mother, and my other brothers. She was a light in a state I consider has such a dim light I would not feel safe to go back. I love you Nevaeh and I am sorry I never got to meet you.... Or hold you.. I only knew ya personally when you were in your mama's belly and the video calls where I got you to stop crying and laughing, with a Cheetos covered faced. You were the cutest little thing. So Nevaeh just know auntie loved you even if she couldn't hold you once... Couldn't hug you or personally get you to give you sugar and give you back to your father. I am sorry and I love you. And Norman, please be taking good care of little Nevaeh for us. We love and miss you both.

Song: I Know I'm a Wolf- Young Heretics
youtu.be/OiSFPN37hhE

Design for Nevaeh (adopted her from) SparDanger
Futsu (Adopted him from) tavithetiger
Wingupuffs owned by Valyriana (Or was got to look that up it's been a while)
Edits, clothes for Futsu, art and Character owner TynaStargazer